four eighty two

20 Things....

2011-07-18T22:22:00.008-05:00

I'm grateful for (in no particular order of importance).....

1) Waking up to see another day
2) Waking up late and still making it to work on time
3) The fried onion rings I had for lunch.
4) The Sunkist soda I had along with the onion rings.
5) Finding my dog after she ran away this morning and that she is ok
6) The compliment a random guy on the street gave me on my afro puff.
7) Having a hilarious coworker who makes me laugh and make the job bearable.
8) Going to my grandparents house and seeing that my family was okay.
9) My aunt inviting me along to have dinner with her and my cousins.
10) ....and for her treating as well and making sure that I was okay.
11) My pastor teaching a great word tonight at bible study and being faithful to his works for Christ.
12) Always walking away with something that I can apply to my everyday life.
13) Realizing a character flaw in myself today and being able to hold myself accountable and commiting to correcting it.
14) God giving me a million second chances
15) God's grace
16) Coming home to my dog greeting me at the door jumping and wagging her tail in excitement to see me
17) Talking with a longtime friend/ex and us still having so much love and respect for each other.
18) Growth
19) For what lies ahead
20) For my family and friends

This right here....

2011-07-13T11:03:00.006-05:00

is the reason to never give up. I wont sum it up cause you can see why when you click on the link following my ramblings and actually read it. :)

Ive been following this blog(A Belle in Brooklyn) for some time now and I absolutely love her. She is a friend in my head and she really does seem like the go to girl for advice. Every time I visit her site I can count on her honesty, vulnerability and overall girl power inspiration. Not to mention that her writing style is the TRUTH and her hustle is admirable. She is a single lady living in the big city dating, writing, and hustling for her dream to write a book. Anyway after much anticipation she finally finished the book(yay!!! throws pink confetti) and now you can buy it here. This post totally made my day and I love seeing people's dreams come to fruition because anyone truly chasing there passions knows how hard it is and how alone you often feel. Congrats Belle on doing you and doing it well!

Enjoy!
http://www.abelleinbrooklyn.com/blog/2011/7/9/32-the-birthday-post.html

Vent Session

2011-07-05T22:55:00.007-05:00

Im okay folks...I feel horrible for abandoning my little slice of the internet that is this blog. Anyway, tonight just feels like one of those nights where I feel the need to just whine a bit. Lets be clear I cant and have no right to complain at all. I am grateful for each breathe God allows and to be of sound mind and body. However, sometimes I'm just taken aback by the journey of life. Somethings truly just make me say "huh?" Right now I honestly feel like Im on the verge of a breakthrough. I can feel it and almost taste it. Im positive that I am close but not quite there. Why is that and why is that feeling so loud? Its a weird place to be because here I am on one side the bridge waiting for some type of relief to get to the other side.

Feeling like me again....

2010-10-29T01:58:00.011-05:00

Apparently this thing still works... the internet gods still let me have my tiny slice of the internet after much abandonment on my part. Let's just say life has been going on and it's been kicking my butt pretty good. So much that I havent been feeling like myself for awhile now. Somewhere between moving back home after school to now I've kinda lost a little me. As much as I hate to admit it, the time has been filled with insecurities, fear and confusion topped with a lot of hurt. Leaving me with a gumbo of emotions to straighten out. The toughest thing has been dealing with my family and my grandmother's illness. Its strange and even kinda morbid to say that I feel like we have been in mourning all year. We have been stressed to say the least and every time we get a call from the nursing home or hospital it seems like we are bracing ourselves in our own way. Its hard to watch a loved one struggle and its taken a big toll on the family. Financially, emotionally, and physically. Doctors are not giving us good news at this point but the good thing is that I dont expect them to have all the solutions. Some things are bigger than medical practice and I believe God wouldnt have it any other way. So with all thats been going on personally and collectively with my family Ive been clinging to hope and to that small part of me that believes that things just have to get better. Life is not a fairy tale and it aint been no crystal stair but Im still here and thats a miracle in itself. Ive recognized what this period is in my life and I promised myself that 2010 would be the start of me getting myself together and I can honestly say that with less than 2 months of the year left I am progressing bit by bit. So until the next post I'll be improving and getting back me..... :)

Dear God, grant me the serenity.....

2010-08-14T00:17:00.007-05:00

A lot is going on right now. Too much to type right now though. I have a lot on my mind while trying hard to remain strong and positive. My heart feels heavy at times and my insides are burning with anticipation for whats to come. Whats to come? I have no idea. I am anxious while trying not to be anxious at all. Im always thinking. Can thinking go on vacation for awhile at least until I can get back to me? Thinking seems to be in the way these days. Like clouds in front of the sun. Clouds are cool but the sun makes it better, brighter, and clearer. Is this making any sense? I dont know. Just rambling really and doing too much thinking....

Today I found a prayer today that was clearly for me on Elev8 and I thought I should share it....

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
Courage to change the things I can and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time.
Enjoying one moment at a time.
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace.
Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it.
Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will.
That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him.
Forever in the next.
Amen.

–Reinhold Niebuhr

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will direct your paths. Proverbs 3, 5-6

Read more: http://elev8.com/spirit/prayer-support/robindownes/the-serenity-prayer/#ixzz0wYWGepdd

Life, love, and randomness of course...

2010-06-16T23:20:00.008-05:00

Starting with the randomness...today at work I realized that this blog has taken a life of its own. I started this blog because I wanted to document my life as a new designer trying to find my way in this crazy art and design world. Share my love which is my creativity and throw in the randomness that is well...just me. Hence the blog's subtitle. I never intended for majority of my post to be so personal. I mean thats why I keep a journal right? Well, Im glad that this has turned into another outlet for me. I really cant apologize for writing things that are from the heart. It helps and it is necessary for me to purge from time to time because I remember a time when it was very difficult for me to express myself. So I'll just continue to follow the natural grain of this whole thing.

On life... still trying to figure that thing out so the saga continues. After I got back from L.A, I started to feel a little differently about the whole move. I havent quite put my finger on it but something was just different. Im still making plans to leave because I know it would be beneficial but somehow that particular trip made me feel indifferent. Perhaps it is because I was alone and the reality started to set in real strong. I was moving to a new city with no job and not knowing a soul. That trip also confirmed the end of a rollercoaster friendship. That relationship needed to end so all is well. One thing I realized during that trip was that I am a lot stronger than I give myself credit for and the Comfort Inn and Suites is not a crappy place to stay. I slept like a baby that whole weekend. It was lovely.

On love... will it ever find me? I dont know but over the course of this past week I realized that I had very strong feelings for a certain someone that Ive known for a while. Im not sure if we would ever speak again but I do want to clear the air. I decided this weekend not to talk about him anymore to anyone because I know my friend is truly tired of me whining about it. If we are meant to be we'll be. Life goes on!

On more random ish... Handsome dread guy that I wrote about a while back cut his dreads off! Im not sure how I feel about that because his locs are definantly what attracted me to him. We still do not talk regularly but it peeps up every now and then. He recently called me and asked if I would meet him in Atlanta. What the? I just played along with the brief conversation because it was late and I figured he was drunk calling me or something. It was quite funny thinking back on it.

Blog Anniversary!!!!!!

2010-05-30T21:51:00.005-05:00

I forgot to mention that this month marks 1 year for Four Eighty Two!!! Oh how they grow up so fast. One whole year of life, love and all kind of randomness and Im not stopping! Filling in life's blanks one day at a time :)

THANKS to my 3 faithful followers and to those who stumble in every now and then!!!!

Still hangin'....

2010-05-30T20:47:00.013-05:00

Wow!!!Its been well over a month since Ive posted anything and I am a very bad blogger. In fact I should be reported to BPS(Blog Protective Services) for neglecting my blog! lol. Anyway, a lot has been going and I will be filling in on the events soon. I PROMISE!

So lets start with todays events and work backwards just so we can play catch up.

Today, I went to church and I definantly needed a word from the Lord because I was so up and down this morning while getting ready for church. Plus I missed the last two Sundays. On the way to church I stopped by the new nursing home to visit my grandmother and to drop off something for her. My grandmother has only been there a few days and my family and I have mixed feelings with her being there. Of course we want her to be home but the reality is that we are not able to care for her in the way that she needs. My grandmother is really sick and she cannot do anything for herself. I have to say that Ive always thought that there were some benefits to nursing homes like being around other people in her age group, engaging in activites, and having a skilled staff at all times to keep an eye on her.

However, when I walked into the home I did kinda see first hand the negative stereotypes about nursing homes. I saw a lot elders in wheelchairs in the hallways just dazed and out of it. Like they were drugged. Some just looked really lonely and sad. I was flooded with thoughts and very emotional but I was still trying to be positive. Smiling and speaking to residents and staff as I walked what seemed like an eternity to her room.

Maybe that nursing home isnt the best place for her to be i thought. I finally found her room and apparantly she is sharing a room with a lady who is wheelchair bound and she moans in agony all the time. I can tell that my grandmother is always happy to see me and that gives me hope and makes me happy as well. I can also tell that she is just tired of being sick and tired. Sometimes she is strong and sometimes she wants to give up. She has been in and out of the hospital for months and doctors cannot figure out exactly whats wrong. Grandmother says over and over that she just doesnt feel good. The look in her eyes is hurtful to me and I can tell that she is in pain. Of course always remind her to be strong and keep fighting because that is very important in healing. Im just ready for her to come home to be with my papa. I just want to see them sitting at the kitchen table talking together or going to their favorite cafe for lunch. The little things. The thing that I have been thinking about the most is that growing old is inevitable. We may need to depend on someone to feed or dress us. All in all this is a very stressful time for my family and I but we are still hangin' on and I am trusting God all the way.....

What Barbie should look like.....

2010-04-01T17:02:00.004-05:00

Simply gorgeous....every little girl should have one!

Letter on a steno pad....

2010-03-30T13:51:00.013-05:00

Got a surprising letter in the mail over the weekend. My name is misspelled and there is no name or return address. Its not a bill (thank god!) so maybe its an invitation of some sort. I mean I was kinda expecting something from a friend. I open it up to see yellow steno pad paper and blue handwriting. I glanced down to the bottom to see who is the author but still nothing. So now I have to read this mystery letter right now, right here at the kitchen island because the suspense is both exciting and scary.

The first line tells me exactly who its from. He says that he has been trying to find me on the internet but didnt have any luck until he got certain "papers" in the mail.

Its my father..... a man Ive never known and only seen a few times. I look like him and I am his firstborn.

Im stunned but I go on to read this letter that is quite short and to the point. He says he is doing better than he has been in a very long time and that he thinks of me often. He knows that I have grown into a beautiful woman and he goes on the write words that have been lingering with me since Saturday night....

"Ive found that God has a way of opening your eyes so you can see yourself for who you really are, I have neglected my own flesh and blood. I pay for it daily".

The letter closes with asking for my forgiveness and to thank my mother for a fine job. A number is at the bottom with "Please Call"! written next to it.
As I was reading this letter I felt nothing but compassion. How hard is it to admit your faults and then when you are truly sorry how hard is it to ask and hope that a person forgives you?

"Daddy issues" is a tough thing and a very sensitive matter. While I don't excuse anyone abandoning a child PERIOD I do know something about being human and making huge mistakes. I know that when I do something wrong I ask and pray that the person Ive wronged would sincerely forgive me.

Forgiveness is hard to do especially when it hurts so deep and has an affect on your life. But as Ive gotten older and able to evaluate my dealings with men and people period Ive come to realize one thing: That I will not play the victim anymore. I have to handle this situation like any other human being that have dissed me or done me wrong. Forgive and keep it moving. You cant change people but you can change how you react to situations. Perhaps things happen for you instead of to you. Ive learned my worth and Ive learned to forgive my father. Its does not change the past but it is making my future peaceful and brighter. Oh how Ive learned the power of forgiveness. How can you really love if you cant forgive?

The truth of the matter is that I think of him often and I always wonder how he feels about me and what life would or wouldve been like had he stuck around. They say never say never but Im almost certain that we will never have a relationship.

I forgive him PERIOD. Sincere with no expectations.

I dont think I will be dialing his number but I do want him to know that I forgive him and wish him many of god's blessings.
Maybe I'll send him a text....lol

Summer Hairspiration

2010-03-15T14:38:00.002-05:00

The weather is heating up and the last thing I want to do is think about my hair. Im hoping my stylist can squeeze me in this week but Im not quite sure how I want my hair. Ive been thinking about braids but I absolutely loved my twist and would like to get them again but perhaps go a little longer this time.....decisions, decisions

My completely vain list of ish that make me say ugh about men....

2010-03-15T14:25:00.004-05:00

Well, its monday again and a very long one might I add. I wish I can be out enjoying the sun instead of sitting here in the office. Ive been ~~reading blogs~~ working all day and realized that Ive been neglecting my very own blog. I was catching up on one of my fave blogs verysmartbrothas and as I was reading one of his past post called sh*t i just dont get about women I started to think about things that irk me with men specifically bachelors and their pads. I decided that 482 needed to add her 2 cent....yeah most of it if not all is petty and vain but so what....it makes me roll my eyes and say ugh!

btw this is in no particular order of disgust I just like numbering things sometimes :)

1. Cheap wood or leatherish toilet seats.

why???? Now Im not saying that I havent occasionally seen this at a woman's house but I usually see this foolishness at a males house and usually its a guy that I'm dating and usually its the first thing I vow to change if we ever got serious. Really, I understand the whole masculine-wood appeal but something about it is just awful

2. Black sheets

When I think of black sheets I immediately think of Playboy. Then I wonder what could be living on those sheets. Then I get I sick. Men usually think that this is a good idea because its masculine, cant go wrong with black, and thats about all the thought that went into this tackiness. These black sheets are usually accompanied by low thread count and a black/grey color block comforter. To add insult to injury bachelors usually have the flattest pillows you'd ever seen next to IHOP pancakes! *smh*

3. Leather sofas/loveseats

Fellas, I get it...you love black and leather but how about we graduate to ultrasuede, premium leathers and contemporary styles. Im tired of slipping and sliding all over your rent a center couch! Fellas be up on your leather grades. Thanks :)

4. Cheap flatware and plastic dishes

If you are a grown man who is not in college there is no excuse! Why must I see that same dinnerware set? You know the forks that have those plastic handles and comes in a plethora of colors. Yeah those. Men love these because they are cheap, cheap, cheap. Imagine getting a 500 piece dinner set for like $10. I guess that really could be a hard one to leave on the shelf at Walmart. *shrug* Dont get me wrong I freaking love Walmart but quality over quantity will always prevail in the end. I mean arent you guys tired of losing those plastic handles in the dishwasher???

5. ESPN

Okay this wont be long.
I just dont get it. Why do we have to watch the game, the highlights, and the highlights of the highlights.

All reasons why men need women, lol...

Awake from a dream...

2010-02-22T05:59:00.005-06:00

I woke up from a crazy, silly dream.....rolled over to glance at the clock it said 4:17am. After about a minute of wondering what that dream was all about I immediately thought "not again". Not another spell of sleepness nights. Ive talked briefly in the past about me having problems sleeping and it is almost always connected to stress. However, its not one of those nights and as you read on you will see why.

The past two weeks have been well.... bittersweet. So much has gone on but I feel relieved and kinda dissappointed all at the same time. The battle has been between what I feel is faith/patience/timing vs taking a chance/stepping out on a limb/the unknown. I talked to a certain friend on friday night about this situation and by the time we got off the phone I ended up in tears. I dont think he was intentionally trying to make me feel guilty about my choices but I did. He made some valid points about following your dreams and risk but I couldnt seem to tell him that this was about faith and waiting. I was too tired to explain it and for some reason I just felt that he truly wounld not understand. Im not upset with him but I decided right after that I needed a break from him because Ive been carrying that conversation with me since friday night.

Fast forward 4:17am...

Right after I wondered about that crazy dream I immediately start to cry again about that conversation and went through the shoulda, coulda, woulda's about my life. A big part of me knew better than to let that weigh heavily on me because some things you simply cannot control. Then I realized that this sleepless night is not about me stressing and crying. I woke up because God and I needed time together. He woke me up from that crazy dream with his hands out waiting for me to cry it out and hand it over. And thats what I did...He even gave me confirmation as I started to be reminded of a when my pastor said that sometimes it is ok to tangibly give our situations to God. Like in Sins of the Mother where the mother writes down her problems on a scrap of paper and bury it in her garden and as the the paper disintergrates the soil becomes richer promising beautiful flowers. As a christian you learn that god's timing is totally different than yours but it is certainly always on time.

Well, Im getting sleepy again so until the next.....sweet dreams

Snowing in Texas?!?

2010-02-11T16:54:00.008-06:00

Surprise, surprise!!! I woke up this morning to a winter wonderland and I couldnt believe thatwe actually had real snow outside. For those of you who live in Texas know how finicky the weather can be so we are loving our snow days!
12 inches of snow on the east coast = nothing serious BUT 12 inches of snow in Texas = shut the whole city down and play!

Snow days meant no school for the kiddos. I enjoyed hearing them having snow ball fights outside of my office. I was surprised to see a snowman when I left work. That truly made my day because Ive never actually seen one before. I had to snap a few pics of the kids and their creation. I wonder if they named him?

The ride to work...

The ride home from work...

Day 2...views from the balcony

Yes, yes, yes!!!!

2010-02-09T12:32:00.011-06:00

1:00 in the afternoon and Im having a fashion orgasm!! Oh how I love blazers and bags. I would love to have these things in my closet just in time for spring.

ADAM by Adam Lippes found on shopbop.com

Talk about breaking up the monotony from the usual black or white! This ADAM fuschia blazer found on shopbop.com is so cute. I love the double breasted menswear look. Looks like she snagged it from her boyfriend's closet, dyed it, and now he's wondering "what happened to my jacket"? lol

'James' Distressed Linen Blazer by Elizabeth and James

Dear 'James' Distressed Linen Blazer,

Please find my closet. I promise I will find mutiple ways to wear you and to pair you with nice bags and shoes....

Patiently Waiting,

Four Eighty Two

The Olsen Twins can do no wrong in my book. I absolutely love their Elizabeth & James brand!

lucien bag by Boyy

Perfect bag to wear with the 'James" distressed blazer or with a ultra feminine summer dress. Shoulder bags are so hot for the spring and summer. Love the chain strap and exotic skin :)

slash bag by Boyy

Im always on the fence with grey bags for some reason but this bag is too hot to be indecisive about. I'll take both bags please...

Feeling a little guilty...

2010-02-06T11:57:00.007-06:00

What's going on with me?

Bear with me as I give you a little background to my feelings....

I met a nice, handsome guy with dreads about 2 months ago at a bar. Literally, we were at the bar. Me and my girl had just walked up to the bar to order some drinks. Immediately a man that appeared to be old as Methuselah offered to buy us drinks and hit on me. I wasnt surprised because this particular place caters to a particular age group and the live music is always on point. So anyway, Im leaning against the bar sipping on my drink and Methuselah is standing in front of me trying to get my number. All the while nice, handsome dread guy is also sitting at the bar drinking with his boys. Occasionally we would sneak looks past the people we were talking to and check each other out.

Dont you love it when you see someone attractive and the feelings are mutual but you both still try to act like your not staring......priceless!!!!

So some time passes and I get rid of Methuselah. My girl and I grab a table to enjoy the drinks and music and another guy approaches the table. He was nice. He was also tall and cute but a little on the skinny side. We are all talking and having a pleasant time but the whole time we were at the club I was secretly hoping I would meet nice, handsome dread guy. Every now and then I would check to see if he was still around. After doing this a dozen times I realize that he eventually left. By this time im feeling a little dissappointed and of course I totally blame tall, cute and skinny for blocking!

We all agree to go get some breakfast. Tall, cute and skinny leaves the club first and waits for us outside while we use the ladies room. As me and my girl are finally leaving the club nice, handsome dread guy appears out of nowhere and says "you know I wasnt leaving without meeting you". I smile. Names and numbers are exchanged.

The next day we hook up for drinks, conversation, flirting, and games. I learn that he is frm Florida but lives on the east coast. He joined the army after high school and I went to college in Florida. We have a significant age difference and he has a young son. I tell him that I am a designer and desire to move to the west coast. He tells me that he has a clothing company and lauched his first show on the west coast! Long story short....we are vibing and making eyes at each other. By the end of the night I ask him if this was it.

Day after that he goes back to the east coast. He text me that same day and we eventually talk on the phone a few days later. Again, our conversions are great and we continue to learn more about each other. We even send a few pictures.

This all sounds great right?

Well, it is but after that we have been playing phone tag like a mother and I cant say that its all him because he always call when he says he is going to call. Me on the other hand always call him whenever it is convenenient for me. I work full time and when I go home Im sewing all night. The only little time I have to talk is in the bed on the way to sleep and I really dont want to do that. I cant get with the time differences and my weekends are just like my work weeks. However, when we do talk it is briefly because im always doing something. Im always apologizing to him about not calling and he is understanding but says that he is also dissappointed and that being busy is no excuse...I couldnt agree more.

I really do like him but I have a few concerns and some are honestly a little vain. In this case his young son lives with him and requires a lot of time and attention. How much time could he give me? Does he have baby mama drama? He lives all the way on the east coast and we are both so busy. Do I want to put in all the work that it would take to have a long distance relationship?

My best friend says that it is all about balance and that I should be able to do it. I mean I am really feeling him! He is handsome, employed, fun, and has mad swagger yet I just cant seem to do it...

Could I possibly be missing out on a good guy? Am I being too self centered and just making excuses? I dont know....Just feeling bad about not trying I guess

Sorry for such a long post....482

Pesto, mozzarella, and about 7 minutes!!

2010-02-06T11:16:00.004-06:00

Sorry about the bad photo. I took it from my phone

Last night I decided do a quick and easy dinner. I snagged this recipe from Soul Pretty and I am always on board for good recipes! Really, its absolutely fool proof and sooo good. Go over to Soul Pretty's blog to get the complete recipe. Happy Snackin' :o

Soon to be Product Junkie......

2010-01-25T16:16:00.021-06:00

Last summer, I did a post about my obsession with my kinky twist and the new hair products I was using. Anyway, Im still discovering my natural kinks and I'm determined to find the products that work best with my apparently Type 4 hair. I dunno though because my texture seems to have multiple personalities. However, I will shout hallelujah whenever I find my natural hair swag. Meaning achieving length, finding great products, and versatile styles. SO, here are some products I have been using recently followed by products recommended by other naturals with Type 4 hair....

Rasta Locks and Twist Spray Oil...

I still love this stuff even though I havent used it as much since Ive had my twist. I usually spray it on my scalp after I blow out my hair sometimes. Its light and I cant get enough of the mango/lime smell and the tingle sensation to my scalp. Loves it! Cost me about $4 bucks

Rasta Locks an Twist Protein Conditioner...

Again, I love the smell but the conditioner didnt quite work for me. The hair didnt get that excited about it. Cost me about $4 bucks

Taliah Waajid Berry Clean Three in One...

My stylist recommended this product line to me and I was excited to try it. This is another product that smells heavenly and detangles like nobody's business. I know it has cute little kinky kids on the front but I have found that some products made for children are great detanglers. Good detanglers are a must for my hair! Great product for kinky, curlys on the go and cowashing. Cost me about $8 bucks

Herbal Essences Hello Hydration Conditioner...

After seeing this product a few times on BGLH I decided to at least give it a try. I was quite skeptical at first so I decided to check it out one day at Walmart before actually buying it. At first I thought this stuff is probably just another Suave-ish product that is not for black hair, smells good and do exactly nothing.... BUT I caved in anyway because of the coconut smell and it only cost $3bucks. It worked for Britnee, another Type 4 natural so it could possibly work for me. I just started using it last week and Its my favorite so far! It really has great moisture and detangles very well.

Organics Olive Oil Shampoo...

I'm learning that olive oil is great for natural hair and my hair loves it. Its so multi-purpose. Good in the kitchen and bathroom. My hair is still new to this product but so far no complaints. I can give a better assessment in about a month.

Cost me about $4!

Hollywoods Best Olive Oil Shine Moisturizer...

I picked up this moisturizer along with the olive oil shampoo. It cost only $3 and of course it smells good. It is not heavy and i can definantly feel the oil but its not over bearing. I dont think that I will be using it daily but i will use after blow outs or whenever I want to smooth down frizzys on my twist. Verdicts still out on if I will be buying it again but I will give it more time.

Recommedations and tips from Fashion NetteWork, another fab chica with beautiful natural hair. We had a chance to chat a bit on saturday and she gave me great suggestions on products and styling. Stay tuned for my reviews later. Also check out Juanette's blog for all the latest fashion T. She's awesome!

1)Biotin Vitamins

2)Grapeseed Oil

3)Rosemary Oil

4)Taliah Waajid Protective Mist bodifier

5)Qhemet Biologics Heavy Cream, Honey Balm

Tip!!! Dry hair with T-shirt not a towel...

Haiti in my heart and prayers....

2010-01-20T22:22:00.004-06:00

I dont have the words to express how heavy my heart is for Haiti...watching the news coverage and following Wyclef Jeans "Yele Haiti" organization. I cant even imagine experiencing that type of devastation. However with that I also have a great deal of joy and peace because I know that God has it in hands in this situation. I am already thankful to God for the rebuilding of Haiti. We should never, ever forget our people in other parts of the world. America, lets not turn a blind eye to whats going on outside of us. We are all connected. Period

http://yele.org/

Checking in...

2010-01-19T11:07:00.007-06:00

I just realized that this will be the first post in "Twenty Ten". I really havent had anything to blog about lately. No life changing experiences or adventures as of yet in the new year but Im looking forward to things really changing for me. Hopefully a big move!! Anyway, I am getting ready for the Creativation "A Beautiful New You" Expo this weekend. Ive been working with a lot of denim and dyes and I think these handbags will be fun for the summer. For some reason, I just have the urge to bring denim bags back in a less ugly way than we remember. I will have pics to share on Saturday. Wish me much success at the event :)

2009 Recap......

2009-12-31T14:49:00.009-06:00

Wow! 2010 is almost here and I couldnt be happier to see 2009 go. This past year has been very tough for all of us but we toughed if out and it will only get better! The end of the year allows us to reflect on the past year while looking forward to the future. Last night I had another one of my many restless nights. I laid awake until almost 5am thinking about my life in 2009... my experiences, things Ive learned, things Ive accomplished, family, friends, etc, etc. So, i came up with a list of things that Ive learned in the past year. I starting do this in 2008 and I figured that I should keep doing this every year. This list is without a doubt based on actual events that occurred this year.....

1. When people say, "I work better under pressure" is only an excuse to procrastinate. I am so guilty of working under pressure its not even funny. This is on the top of my "you seriously need to do better list" in 2010.

2. Procrastination prevents you from living in the present because you spend a lot of time catching up and making up for things you should have done a long time ago.

3. Each day that God allows you to see is an opportunity for change.

4. Always save. No matter how small.

5. Stress is a horrible thing and if not controlled can be very harmful. Ive learned that this is one reason why God says that we should renew our minds each day. (Another major one on my "do better" list)

6. Having a house, job, car, etc doesn't make you grown. As we saw in 2009, this things can go as fast as they come. Not only does being an adult require us to be responsible with material things but also responsible with how we treat people, our relationships, and be responsible for the things we say.

7. When it comes to men, their egos can be attached to money. When a man stuggles financially his ego takes a hit and he can feel inadequate.

8. A man will treat you exactly how you let them. Don't be afraid to tell them what you want. Demand that they respect your thoughts and feelings. When a man wants or like you, he will go to great lengths to show you. In a nutshell, men are simple. lol

9. There is a big difference between being self employed and being a business owner. I wont elaborate on that but please research or google it if interested in learning more...

10. Never, ever settle or give up on my dreams!!! Keep tunnel vision on my goals and don't let the many people around not trying to live their dreams influence you or make you think that you are reaching too high!

So, thanks for the experiences and life lessons 2009. See ya in the new year folks. Lets get it 2010!!!!!!!!

Where art thou Christmas spirit?

2009-12-19T13:42:00.004-06:00

Hmmm....so Christmas is next week and I have yet to get into the spirit. I dont know why but Im just not into it this year. To be honest I almost forgot it was Christmas time until we strolled The Grove and saw all of the lights and decorations. It really was beautiful and thats when I realized that everyone was shopping for Christmas. Lately, I have been so disconnected from the world it seems. Ive been inside my head this whole year that 2009 has been a bit of a blur. So up and down. I havent had any interest in shopping for gifts or even making any. I know the true reason and meaning of the season but it doesnt hurt to have that exciting feeling that I had when I was a little girl. So in an attempt to lift my spirits I'm gonna make some small gifts and maybe have some eggnog.

Back from LA-LA land!!!

2009-12-17T19:11:00.024-06:00

Well, I'm back from L.A. and boy was it an adventure getting there. It took me a few days to adjust but all I can say is that I'm ready to go back! I kinda fell in love with LA-LA land unexpectantly. Of course I went thinking that it was going to be nothing but superficial pretty people doing nothing but superficial things. Silly me, lol. I was completely wrong! L.A. is not as pretty as TV makes it seem. I guess because TV only shows us Hollywood and Beverly Hills of course. Its just like any other place: real people doing everyday things. I had a fantastic time and I had a chance to do some touristsy things. Historic Hollywood Boulevard, Rodeo Drive, Beverly Hills, etc.
Going into Beverly Hills.....Very Pretty!
One day I will be able to actually go into a store on Rodeo, lol.....

Oh hey Snoop....at Madame Tussauds Wax Museum. He looked sooo real! Even his braids!
Barney!!!!!!!! Hey, dont judge me.

My feet inside Will's footprints at Mann's Chinese Theatre

If you ask anybody in LA about Roscoe's or Pink's they will tell you to always expect good food and a big crowd. We lucked up and went to both places while it was a little wet outside so we wasnt in much of a crowd. Hmmm....good food

Ok so if I do make a move to L.A. I already know what my addiction will be. Pinkberry yogurt. My friend likes his with fruit while I prefer mine with fruity pebbles and oreos. Again dont judge me, lol.

The Grove was so pretty all lit up and decked out for Christmas. Maybe next year I will be living in L.A. and I will be able to explore more. I'm so ready for the Fashion District!

The Confrontation......

2009-12-15T12:50:00.011-06:00

So today I finally did it. About an hour ago I sat down and confronted one of the biggest, most overwhelming problems of my life. My D.E.B.T!!!!!! I had to abbreviate it because at some point you feel like you cant win, so you say to yourself "Dont Even Bother Trying". I know that during these difficult times everyone is experiencing some type of debt. However, I really needed to get myself in check. I knew I was spiraling when I started hiding bills in my car trunk, in the glove compartment, and underneath my socks in my drawer. All the dark places I rarely visit. I dont even know why I started doing that. I guess I was secretly wishing that they would just disappear and I wouldnt have to take care of it. Out of sight, out of mind right?

NO!! Apparently, they find you and with a vengence called past due fees, finance charges, higher interest rates, and overage fees. I forgot to mention harassing calls at least 10 times a day but the biggest is just plain ol' bad credit. Ugh!

Anyway, so I dug up every bill both old and new and wrote down everyone I owed blood to into some type of organizational system. I also called up my debtors and this time I didnt give an excuse or ask them to remove fees that I knew I deserved.

As much as I hate to admit it, its time that I get out of the fantasy life in my head and join the real world. I really do want to straighten things out but 09' has been really tough for me. I really am a responsible person who just feels as though Ive gotten caught up. Another one of my biggest fears is that my design dreams will fall by the wayside in lue of me just trying to make money. Ive seen it happen too many times. Its a very sad thing.

SO, the shopaholic, retail addict, trend loving, must have, sale giddy, fabric obessed, no money having self must die!! So I guess this is my first step.....say a prayer for me

No one really reads this blog I think... but I welcome any advice from you reformed bad credit having shopaholics :)

My first date with standby.....get your popcorn ready

2009-11-23T16:50:00.007-06:00

Well, my previous post was all about my excitement with going to L.A. However, I am still in Dallas. I got a standby ticket from a friend of a friend and I have never flown standby before. Okay, so the friend of the friend suggested that we be there for the earliest flight so that we could get on the list and have a better chance of actually getting one. We arrived at the airport at 4 am keeping in mind that we did not go to sleep at all the night before. The airport is already crowded and the lines are long. We get on the list and wait.....6am flight. No go!

Sit, wait, watch the screen for the next flight at 9am....No go! I also learned that there is a priority list for standby so that pushes us further down the list. Great! so I talk to a Delta worker. He tells me to pray for a miracle to even get a flight during the holidays. At this point, we are tired and feeling a little defeated. However, we mustered up a speck of positivity and decided that we would go home, take a quick nap, and try again.

We go back to the airport at 12am to wait for the 5:40am flight. Sit, wait, talk, read, crochet a scarf, meet a drunk, racist guy and wait.(Lots to do when flying standby I guess). We get in line at 3:30am and wait for the workers to clock in and help us. Funny thing is that we were helped by the same guy who told us to pray for a miracle. He also tells us that there is NO 5:40am flight on weekends and we would have to wait for the 8:30am flight. "I like your persistance", he says. All I can do is smile and say thank you. *sigh*

Sit, wait, feel sick, buy overpriced bag of chips, and watch screen for our names...

I forgot to mention that I had a big fight with the friend that was suppose to host us in L.A. Totally not my fault at all!!! Now we have to possibly find a hotel room. *sigh* Im too tired to care at this point.

8:30 am flight. No go.... We finally decide to get a refund go home and go to sleep. I just woke up a little while ago.

Moral to this story.....

1.Dont fly standby if you can help it.

2.There are lots of things that you can do while spending two days at the airport. Some will be repetitive....like waiting.

3.Never give up! We are trying again next week. I think we will have better luck :)

City of Angels + 1...

2009-11-18T20:32:00.005-06:00

Well, I'm packing my bags and heading west...only for a few days though. I've never been to California so Im looking forward to it even if its only for business. So in honor of this little getaway.....

See ya when I get back..... :)

Halloween 2009....

2009-11-01T23:27:00.013-06:00

Wow!! Halloween was a blast! One of my BFF's had a Halloween/Costume/Vegas style party at a chic hotel downtown and I was already feeling festive so I decided to make a costume the day of and my choice was to be an indian. Although, everyone kept calling me Pochahontas but hey whateves! I cant remember the last time I dressed up for Halloween but I'm sure the last time I did my age only had one digit and I was probably missing teeth. I made a very easy pattern and the fabric was cheap. Only $2/yard! but it was a very soft faux suede leather. Added a dark brown trim(also faux suede) around the top. Used a geometric stitch along the top. Dug up my shell and bone jewelry. Stuck a feather in my hair and WA LA!!! An indian! The party was fun and I saw a lot of cool costumes...bacon and eggs, Obama, the flintsones and whats halloween without tons of naughty school girls and playboy bunnys. lol. Also, shouts out to the bartender serving up the bomb signature drinks called the EYE-SEE. It had edible eye balls. I did not eat the eye balls...... Still learning to take decent pics in the mirror....I need to clean that mirror by the way. lol

Doing my best indian call.......

Me and Michael Myers....I was smiling but freakin out on the inside. That mask did kinda creep me out because he wore it the whole night!! I still dont know who he is.....*sigh*

Awww..fun times. Friend and I look like half the village people except cuter!

A friday night, Optimus Prime, and 158 cookies....

2009-10-30T22:09:00.012-05:00

So tonight is pretty chill.... earlier today I was thinking about how I would spend my friday night. I thought about going to happy hour, maybe go buy a pair of shoes, or work on my Halloween costume(dont know why I'm waiting till the last minute)

But I ended up baking over a hundred Neiman Marcus cookies to get me in the trick or treat spirit. Now Ive never had them but I heard about those cookies a long time ago and I even remember getting that same email about the lady who "outed" the recipe. So when my mom recently sent me that same email I decided now is a good time to try it since Ive been wanting to bake something new. So here's my review.....Easy to make but nothing to write home about. However, I guess soft chocolate chip cookies never get old. So I gives it a thumbs up. Plus I just really enjoy baking

To ~~avoid cleaning up my big ol mess~~ whine down from my night of baking I popped in one of my fave movies Transformers and plopped down on the couch. Now I found this to be a fun friday night. Does this mean I am getting old?

Naw...a comfy wife beater, the smell of cookies in the oven, and cars turning into robots. Sounds funs to me :)

Random Thoughts and Decisions....

2009-10-25T23:28:00.010-05:00

I really dont have much to write but just some random thoughts and feelings about my life.... I spent the weekend with one of my dear college friends and when we get together the theme is always "Fashion and Fun". We laugh and talk about everything regarding life. Needless to say, I always leave knowing that "I'm not alone". During my the drive back to my house I started to think about being in my twenties. I like to call it the "turbulent twenties". The stage where you feel like you are all over the place and have so many concerns about your purpose and direction in life. It can be a ball of confusion but I also get a bit of a high from the unknown. That very high keeps me from drowning in confusion and swim torwards something that is in front of me. I have no clue what that something is but I know that its better than drowning. Whoa!!! That sounds like faith(Heb.11:1) to me and like India Arie sings, "its been inside of me....all along"! Its funny how one thing can be said and it sticks with you forever and as I go through life wherever she may take me I will carry this simple belief in my heart.....God does not require us to understand, He just wants us to BELIEVE :)

Handmade did Dallas this past weekend!!!

2009-10-12T17:32:00.025-05:00

The Urban Street Bazaar took place this past weekend and I had a blast!! It was a good experience for me being that it was my first show. There were 85+ vendors who had a tent or table and I was blown away by the amount of creative talent that is all about the Big "D". First off, the whole arrangement of my even participating in the show was that I was to work the booth for a women who could not be there and my payment was that I would be able to share half the booth and sell my handbags. However, the morning of the lady had gotten really sick and she told me that I could have the whole tent to myself and she would still cover all the expenses due to her dropping out at the last minute. What a total blessing!! I was nervous at first and didnt know what to expect but I jumped right on in and began setting up my display. God definantly showed favor because I placed right next to an amazing natural soap vendor who had high traffic and she definantly did well this weekend. Lots of people stopped by my tent and they really loved my work and gave me great compliments. I had a few sales but most of all I was able to see what people responded to. The weather was cold when it was supposed to be sunny and nice but I came prepared and enjoyed myself anyway. My hard work paid off and I made my goal! I had the opportunity of meeting other artist/designers and be amongst a lot of creativity.

My Tent

Studded Clutches and Wristlets!

Oval Hobo Bags

Cross Body Bags...my fave!!

Hang tags got a makeover!!

The Oldies but ended up being the most popular....

especially the red rosette lovey bags!!

Pulse Check!!!

2009-10-02T01:38:00.004-05:00

Just checking in....Im still hanging in there. Whew!!! September flew by just like I thought and Ive just been busy sewing away and I can honestly say that I am happy with this new collection and I hope that people will be happy to support me next weekend so keep your fingers crossed. Im so exhausted though and I cant wait to sleep so goodnite folks :)

Let's catch up......Life, Love, & Urban Bazaar

2009-09-10T01:32:00.013-05:00

So its been a while since Ive posted anything because 1) I havent felt the need to post anything....not that nothings been going on AND 2) I have tunnel vision since finding out that I will be one of the featured vendors at the Make Urban Bazaar next month in Dallas. I have been working like a slave making bags, beading jewelry and trying to finish a dress for class. Oh and still participate in this whole life thing. Time is EVERYTHING right now and my goal is to make at least twenty fabulous handbags for this 2day event. Along with jewelry and accessories. Sounds like a lot just typing it out but I'm positive that I will do as much as my energy and two little hands can do. No stress!!!

In other random news......
I had a great long Labor Day weekend! I went to a pool party and met some cool people.
Baked a BANGIN' sour cream pound cake....Grilled my first t-bone steak with shrimp skewers.
The electricity was out for about 2 days which set me back in work but hey its still all good!
Finally taking down my twist which im kinda sad about. I got so attached....
However, I am excited to use the Taliah Waajid shampoo Ive been reading about on natural hair blogs and came highly recommended by my stylist.

So thats whats up.....four eighty two

Hmmm....one of those good nights

2009-08-18T23:44:00.017-05:00

In bed at an decent hour....
Tapping away on Diva(aka my laptop)....
Slighty sleepy which means that its about to be ON with my pillow in about umm 30 minutes or so.... (good sleep for me is priceless right now)
AND great music playing in the background....all the makings of the end to a good day and a great night!!!
Its funny how music is....an old song can trigger a memory. Allowing you to remember exactly where you were, what you were doing, a certain age, etc.... but most of all a FEELING! I love that!!!!
I remember taping this song off of the radio in middle school to one of my many mixtapes(the original) and listening to it while getting ready for school....awww I never get tired of cruising down memory lane. Enjoy

Watch more R&B music videos at EZ-Tracks

I need YOU.....

2009-08-17T15:43:00.007-05:00

Four Eighty Two does not have many followers YET but maybe those who stumble across my ramblings and thoughts will like to participate so......Help me decide which colorway to use for this new pattern called Oriental Bloom. The end use for this pattern is home decor such as bedding, drapery, rugs, etc... See snippets above. Vote using the poll to the right of screen :)

Thanks folks,

Four Eighty Two....

Ok, i'm back!!!!!

2009-08-15T15:33:00.013-05:00

Back from "the big apple" and I had a blast! Not to sound cliche but I love New York. Every time I go I have a new and different experience. This time I had the opportunity to really see New York a little more... Manhattan, Queens, The Bronxs, and Harlem. Somehow we managed to queeze an adventure in all of these areas in only a few days. Maybe its because we never slept. We ate, shopped, got lost on the subway (several times), caught up with friends, laughed and took a ton of pics. We did so much that I cant even began to type it all out so maybe i'll post some pics soon along with a little synopsis on my New York experience.

A girl's obsession with her hair.....

2009-08-01T00:24:00.020-05:00

So tonight I went to an awesome all girl(artist) art show and decided to try a little updo with my twist. I am so in love with my hair right now. Oh the freedom of not having to actually do my hair but just to play with it! I was inspired by one my favorite natural chics....Jill Scott of course!! Its not exactly like hers but the idea is similar. I would say it came out kinda cute so I had to document this just in case I can't do it again :)

Jill's do..... My do.....!!!

A few twist up the sides and back and secured with hair pins. Me and the stylist are working on the thinning situation but its really not as thin as the pic make it seems.

The Scalp loves this stuff... its natural, it tingles, and it smells like u can eat it (ive never tried to eat it)

Late Nights, Headaches, & Insomnia...

2009-07-30T01:07:00.005-05:00

1:07 am and I am still carrying the same headache since Monday. Im sleepy yet I cant sleep and it hurts so bad. My addiction to Aleeve has worn off so it must be me. They come out of nowhere as if they are in hiding waiting to tag me "it". I have been battling headaches off and on since I was a teenager and I know that stress is the culprit of my headache and insomniac misery. My biggest 09' resolution was to manage stress better and sometimes I do good but most times I dont. I still like to think that I have more good days than bad. I just hate the fact that I feel like I keep falling off the wagon...like im losing control of myself. Ugh...i guess i just needed to get some things out

Disclaimer: this is the randomness of this blog

BET, why do you hate us?

2009-07-29T00:45:00.011-05:00

UGH!!! Dont get me started on the foolery that is BET! Anyway, I am a faithful reader of an online magazine called Clutch and read this article of a letter written to BET by a 15 yr old girl. I couldnt resist posting it so please bear with the length of this post but it is well worth the read:

Janita Patrick is a FICTIONAL character. Article by Zettler Clay

Dear Debra Lee,

I’m Janita Patrick, a 15-year-old African-American female from Cincinnati. Recently, I watched the 2009 BET Awards and felt the strongest urge to reach out to the program. My family is of the typical middle-class variety; both parents and four brothers. See, I’m a junior in high school (got skipped), so naturally EVERYBODY in my age group watches BET. I’m used to seeing the sagging pants, tattoos, lack of emphasis on reading and respecting women that makes up your videos. People in my class live this out everyday, while teachers tell us that we’re acting just like the people in your shows.
In your shows. That struck me as odd, because I would think that with your show being the primary outlet for black entertainers and musicians, and considering the context of blacks in this country, there’s a social responsibility factor to consider. I would never blame BET alone for the way a great deal of my classmates act and talk and dress. Everybody makes their own choices. However, if anybody is aware of the power of television on impressionable minds, it’s the people running the television operations. If you are not aware, then perhaps you shouldn’t be running the operations.
Guess who watches your network the most? Not those who are intelligent enough to discern foolishness from substance, but those who are barely teenagers, impressionable and believing. It’s awfully cruel to plant seeds of ignorance in fertile minds. You know it’s really bad when the co-founder of BET, Sheila Johnson, said that she “really doesn’t watch it” anymore.
I am constantly fighting against the images and messages put forth on your program. What made you think that it’s okay to bring my classmates on stage to dance behind Lil Wayne and Drake to a song talking about boffing “every girl in the world”? Why does reality train wrecks have to be thrown in our faces? Are you aware of the achievement gap going in inner-city African-American communities? A report from America’s Promise Alliance, a non-profit group started by Colin Powell, recently stated that 47 percent of high school students in the nation’s top 50 cities don’t graduate. This isn’t because of BET per se, but I don’t see any episodes on your show doing anything to counteract this disturbing trend. In fact, your show is a part of this cycle of media depicting us at our worst.
My older brother told me something about profit being the number one goal for every business. I’m not sure I understand what that means, but I do know that your shows have to be entertaining enough to generate viewers, which is how you make your money. But surely our culture is rich enough to entertain without anything extra to “boost” ratings; why the over-the-top foolery? I listen to classmates talk about Baldwin Hills like it’s the Manhattan Project. It doesn’t take much effort to produce a throng of degenerative reality shows, nor does it take much to eliminate socially conscious shows off the air. MTV isn’t much better, but since when does two wrongs ever make a right? It’s one thing for white television shows to depict us in a particular way, but for black television shows to do it is just baffling.

Why do you hate us?

All of the values that my parents seek to instill in me and my brothers seems to be contradicted by a more powerful force from the media, and your show is at the forefront. Your network is the only network that features rap videos and shows exclusively to children of my color. I know that you have no control over the music that the artists put out, but you do have influence as to how you air these videos. I’m sure if a stand was taken to use the talent in your organization to actually crank out thought-provoking entertaining shows and videos, then artists will follow suit. Being that they need you as much as you need them.
There was one awkward segment in the BET Awards when Jamie Foxx singled out three black doctors-turned-authors, but the introduction was so powerless that many of the viewers had no idea who they were. Had they been introduced as Sampson Davis, Rameck Hunt and George Jenkins, three brothers who overcame major obstacles to become a success without the use of lyrics that berate women, the sell of substance that destroy communities or through raps about loose gunplay, then maybe my classmates would have come to school talking about more than Beyonce, T-Pain’s BIG ASS CHAIN and Soulja Boy Tell Em’s hopping out the bed.
But they weren’t introduced like that. It seemed like a throwaway obligatory tribute to appease some irritated fans. It missed the mark. Big time. Ask Michelle Obama if she watches BET or encourages Sasha and Malia to do so. Ask President Obama. It’s a reason he is the leader of the free world, and it isn’t because of Buffoonery Exists Today.
You’d be surprised how smart young black children can be with the absence of Blacks Embarrassing Themselves. If your goal is to deter engaged, forward-thinking articulate black minds, then consider your goal fulfilled. It’s hard-pressed to think that your shows are working to promote cultural betterment. However, it’s quite easy to conclude that the destruction of black children through the glorification of immoral behavior and rushed production is by design. Poison is being swallowed by every viewer who adores your network, and the worse thing is, these viewers - my classmates - are not even aware what they’re swallowing.
There is nothing edifying for black women on your show. I don’t judge people who do throng to your programs though; I mean, if a jet crashes in right in front of me, I’ll watch it too. That’s why I don’t flip by your channel…I don’t even want to be sucked in.
I have aspirations of acquiring a law degree and possibly entering the public sphere, so I can counteract conditions in my community perpetuated by the images on your channel. So I should thank you, because in a weird sense, your shoddy programming is the wind behind my back. And it is my hope that I can accomplish my dreams despite BET’s pictorial messages, because Lord knows it won’t be because of them.

Sincerely,
Janita Patrick

Janita Patrick is a fictional character. Luckily for Janita, her heartfelt and articulate letter is a result from a lack of BET. Too many others aren’t as lucky.

Hotlanta!!!

2009-07-20T18:19:00.032-05:00

Last week I took a trip to the ATL and it was good being back in one of my favorite cities! Atlanta is a great city with so much to do. During my visit I went to an area called Little 5 Points. It is a small strip of eclectic shops and resturants. Of course I felt at home with the artists, poets, goths and "weird people" all about. I enjoyed browsing all the different shops from vintage to trendy, afrocentric to kinky. Yes, this area is a quite a mix!! But one of my favorite stores was a trendy little shoe store called Cherry Bomb. It is a shoe lovers dream and the prices arent too shabby either.

Also, the highlight of my experience was arriving at Junkman's Daughter. Dont be fooled by the name, this store is a mod podge of thrifty, trendy, and vintage. Its almost a onestop shop! You can find things from a whip and stripper clothes to old school Mr. T lunch boxes. Yes, Little 5 Points will definantly be a must go to whenever I'm in Atlanta. Junk Man's Daughter

Little 5 Pizza

Stefan's Vintage Clothing

My $10 purple strappy shoes from Cherry Bomb and retro postcards from Junk Man's Daughter.

Cupcake Cutie!!!

2009-07-06T00:40:00.007-05:00

Pretty, pretty cupcake comes to life and they turned out surprisingly well! Somewhere between sifting the flour and waiting for the frosting to gloss I found my inner Martha Stewart :) I didnt use the caramel toffee recipe like I wanted to so I made "Christening cupcakes" instead because I already had all of ingredients at home. They pretty much are just vanilla cupcakes but of course I had to put my own spin on it so I made some vanilla with white or pink sugar frosting and then made some with pecans with a cinnamon frosting. The cinnamon pecan are so divine and I got rave reviews from the family. Overall, these little cuties were easy to make and yummy :)

Pretty, pretty cupcake!!!

2009-06-23T23:04:00.013-05:00

I have a few obsessions this summer and surprisingly cupcakes have made the list. After seeing Martha Stewart's show on cupcakes, I realized just how much Ive been sleeping on the art of beautifully decorated cupcakes. Who knew? So with that, I was encouraged to go on over to Barnes and Noble and treat myself to Martha's new cupcake book but was dissappointed at the price. Times are hard and sadly I just cant afford to pay $30 bucks for a cookbook right now. However, as fate would have it I cruised the clearance aisle and scored an equally amazing cupcake book for only $8.98!! This weekend I'm going to try the caramel toffee cupcake recipe. Wish me sweet luck :)And because I'm on such a cupcake high I did a few cupcake sketches over the weekend and designed a repeat pattern in honor of my new love. I named it Pretty, pretty cupcake. Here is a little corner of it. I'm still trying to figure out the color scheme but I definantly can see it on a little girl's summer dress!

New to the lab

2009-06-15T15:44:00.005-05:00

I've added two newbies and I am so in love with them and so far they have brought me great joys. I snagged my first love from a nice lady on Craig's List for $75(yah!!) and it serges my edges beautifully. Its a little old but oldies can be goodies and it was well taken care of by the previous owner. I really like that it's not too fast.....just my speed. So excited to have my very own serger :)

My second love was in good ol' fashion LAYAWAY (remember that) for quite some time but nevertheless I finally paid it off and brought her home. She is a beauty! The Janome 2008 Limited Edition which also benefits women's heart disease. Its digital, has an amazing feed, 50 stitches, and most of all I got it at a great price even though it was in lawaway. So now my old Singer have to go hide out in the storage for now.

Sometimes when you least expect it...

2009-06-15T00:37:00.004-05:00

inspiration can find you and it's true because I was just doing my usual blog browsing hoping to lift my spirits when I stumbled across ginny branch's blog and came across this big piece of inspiration!!! Truly inspiring!!! :)

Also check http://www.grasshopper.com/ to learn more...Remember when you were a kid, when everything was within your reach...

Yes please!!!

2009-06-03T00:25:00.000-05:00

Just doing my usual late night browsing and wishing and came across Tory Burch's site. Oh how I heart her all-american classic styles :)

I love this navy silk dress. Pleats and pattern. So cute!!!

Can I please have these absolutely sexy Teagan Gladiator Pumps?

And this Chocolate Hadley Clutch? I still love this bag...

Hello June!!!

2009-06-02T01:42:00.000-05:00

Well, May was sooo last month and we say "hello" to June. May was good but I have a feeling June will be great!! My summer plans is to hide out a little and enjoy a lot of me time. Catch up on a lot of things! Read a few books, take at least 2 mini road trips, finish an amazing CAD portfolio, see Transformers 2 ( can't wait!!!!) learn, eat, sew, grow, pray, RELAX and smell the roses, literally, I've been feenin' for a trip to the Arboretum!

Dope Jewelry....

2009-05-27T01:58:00.000-05:00

I came across these dope cuffs while flipping through Lucky Magazine. It is beautifully made by jewelry artist Shellie David.

The Upside to a Downturn Economy

2009-05-25T20:45:00.000-05:00

Its no kidding that the economy sucks right now and everywhere I turn someone I know is being laid off, taking a pay cut, or just struggling more than ever just to get by. Of course this makes me sad and I know all too well how hard it is to find a decent job these days. Ive been thinking a lot about these tough times and how we are stuggling to hold on to a sliver of hope. However, as much as Ive been sadden by everything the economy has caused I am starting to see the glass half full!!

This past weekend at Joann's, while waiting on my number to be called to get my fabric cut I looked amongst the many other sewers and crafters waiting and thought "Its too many people, I dont want to wait". But the sale was too amazing so I had to be patient. After getting over my impatience, I immediately thought that this is a good thing. People are holding tight to their purse strings and during tough times we are going back to the basics. Improvising and using our skills and creativity to get us through. Some are knocking off designer styles, revisiting an old hobby while others may be making necessities. Whatever the case, I am so happy that there is always an upside. We should ALWAYS think about the things that are most important.....God, family, friends, good health, and LOVE. Jobs, houses, cars, and things all have costs. They can be here today and gone tomorrow. So with all of that said, let me end this post with a great quote...

"For everything that you've lost, everything that's been stolen, everything that's been taken away, know this: God has another plan. He has another seed. God uses the word seed because that hints at what is coming. Remember, if you will do your part to let go of the old, and start pressing forward, you will give birth to more in the future than you've lost in the past". - Become a Better You by Joel Osteen

Skirts, skirts, skirts...

2009-05-22T23:31:00.000-05:00

I have such a love jones for skirts this summer... Lately, thats all I've been drawn to. I've always loved full skirts. They are classic and ultra ladylike but I am really surprised that I am loving the tiered skirts that are out now. I guess because they look more feminine and classy than the stretchy, cheap mini ones that were out back in 04'. So now I'm inspired and adding this look to my sewing list...Loves it... cotton tiered skirt from BCBG. The color and asymmetrical tiers makes this even more fab!!!

I really love this skirt from Forever 21 (only $28)....great length with earthy tones!! I can picture myself in this skirt, a basic tan cami accented with a small beaded brooch, and some bangin' peep toe heels.....delightful :)

Well, its official!!!

2009-05-21T19:02:00.000-05:00

"The Game" has gotten the axe!! The CW recently posted their upcoming tv schedule and "The Game" is NOT listed anywhere. However, the upside to this is that maybe another network will pick up the show(Fingers crossed). Now, is it me or did the CW treat that show like a red head step-child. I mean did that show really have a fair chance on a Friday night time slot. Just sayin'

Oh wells, I guess I have to look elsewhere for my weekly drama... :(

3 Reasons why I miss Savannah

2009-05-20T23:53:00.000-05:00

1) My ditch days at the beach...

2) Eating Shrimp & Grits at B. Matthews with my buddy...

3) The artsy culture and being around other artists/designers...

Boundaries.....and the importance of them

2009-05-20T14:05:00.000-05:00

I recently heard a wise woman say on the radio that "women have a problem creating boundaries". After she said that, I thought hmmm...could that be one of my problems? Is that one of the contributors to the stress in my life? I never really thought about that before but since then I have realized some areas in my life where boundaries need to be in place. Why do I not set boundaries? Is it that I lack a sense of my own identity? Maybe so, Im thinking that it would be impossible to set boundaries without knowing one's self and having SELF RESPECT, SELF WORTH, and VALUE. My keyword here is SELF. Self discovery is a hard but great thing. Setting personal, relationship, and most of all emotional boundaries is a MUST and I am so happy that my twenty something year old SELF is realizing the importance of them!!

OMGoodness....The Game Season Finale

2009-05-19T01:56:00.000-05:00

Returning from a funfilled weekend with the girls...I couldnt wait to return home to Diva (aka my laptop) to give my thoughts on the CW's The Game Season Finale. First of all, I am a big fan of the show and I am so sad that the show is suffering. So, in hopes of getting it renewed for another season the producers are trying it as a one hour dramedy. This news made me :) and me the girls was so excited to watch the hour long season finale.

However..... we were looking confused the whole time. I just dont think that we were ready for the absence of the laughing track and the weird, shaky camera business! Also, there was unneccessary fluff like Malik's sister singing. I still dont know what to think about Melanie and Derwin's situation but Im glad that they tyed the knot. I just hate how they got there. Kelly is just looking long faced while Jason wilds out and Tasha is still trying to recover from that overly dramatic fight scene! Oh, Rick Fox returns out the cut!! OMGoodness!!!! I could go on but despite my complaints, I'm still in full support of The Game and I hope it will make it for at least another season. We'll find out soon so keep your fingers crossed :)

Designer shoes at Payless?

2009-05-14T00:34:00.000-05:00

Last weekend, a friend of mine raved about the designer shoes she bought at Payless. I've bought a couple pairs of cheap sandals a few times but never really put them on my shoe shopping list first. I love there affordable prices and I know that they have progressed since those days of plastic vinyl and dyeables but I had no idea of their recent come up!!!

Hot, new designer Christian Siriano, winner of "Project Runway" is releasing a line of shoes at Payless for the Fall and celebrities have already gotten their hands on a pair. Now that is "Fierce" and you dont have to to break the bank to still be a fashionista!

Let the blogging began!!!

2009-05-13T00:47:00.000-05:00

Well, here we go... allow me to use my new blogging muscles as this is my first official post to Four Eighty Two!! I am so excited to welcome those of you who have stumbled across my little blog thinking, "what is this all about"? Well, to answer your question... this blog will be about my musings on life, my work, and all kind of randomness. Plus, blogging is cheaper than therapy, lol. I will say in advanced that I probably will not blog everyday but just whenever I feel inspired to share something with you fine people :) Please feel free to visit anytime and leave comments. A word of encouragement is always welcomed in my life. So with that said, lets hold up our glasses and toast to life, love, and all kind of randomness !! Cheers!!

Lots of love....Four Eighty Two